Currently Listening The Longest Yard By Original Soundtrack, Various Artists Fly Away see related

Been a long time, but i dont feel like going that deep on whats been happening to me.  

1 ) Maria and I are back together, and i couldn't be happier, it was so weird not having her as my girlfriend, and it feels like everything with me is starting to get back to what i have got to know as normal, so i love it.

2 ) Football is not near what i want it to be, its just not fun.  I dont even know why i play or if i even want to play anymore.

3 ) Well there really isn't a three at this moment, but if there was it would be right here lol.  I'm sick of having high hopes, and being let down.  For anyone reading this it is about football not my relationship! There is quite possibly no worse feeling than the one you feel when you have been let down by some of your team.  The people that are supposed to live and die for you on that football field, its weird.  Like Dan Hilbert said before the game, "its weird, but when coach is leading us out to the field and we see the other team, its like he is leading us to the front lines of war,  and we are checking our equiptment, making sure everything is good for battle." and that really makes sense.  When we take that field, it is a war, a battle, victory or defeat.  And the people next to you, you have to know that no matter what, they did everything they could to get a victory, and you have to know that no matter what, that guy next to you is going to do what he needs to do, because when it comes down to it , he knows you would do the same for him.  Thats a team, and right now we dont understand that.

*====>  Its More than a game, its a way of life  <====*

Football has officially started, meaning its an end to summer as i know it.  The funny part is i dont care at all, i am just so hyped up for this season to start.  I found out that so far i am #1 on the right side, since everytime coach picks receivers its me and bobby, so that makes me happy.  We are going to be the underdogs this year, and i wouldn't have it any other way.

Other than that, i must say that from what i thought it was gonna be like trying to find someone special, to what it was actually like is unbelieveable.  I didnt think you could talk on the phone for 3 hrs with someone and actually never miss a beat, or always have something in common with what the other person is saying, but i found out that it is, which leads me to believe that she must be something very special.  Not to mention she likes football as much as i do, which makes it very hard to try and take things slow lol.  anyway i couldn't be happier right now Thanks.

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Currently Gaming PS2 NCAA Football 2006 By Electronic Arts see related

1 DAY TIL FOOTBALL OFFICIALLY BEGINS!!!!!!!! I have never been this excited for a season to start in my whole life! Seriously though i dont think im gonna be able to sleep i cant wait, at least it will take my mind off the fact i dont think im gonna have a gf for quite some time but footballs here so im happy! Just been hangin around the house and playin football and baseball.  really bored so leave me some comments so i can read them.

D.Werner #1

Currently Listening I Miss You, Pt. 2 By blink-182 Umm probrbaly i miss you see related

So the one thing in the world i didnt see ending anytime soon actually did.  I dont even know what to say.  I have the sickest feeling in my stomach, and i dont know what to do.  I guess i never really thought that this would happen,but it did.  I'm nervous and anxious at the same time, and i dont know what, what do i have to be anxious for?  I dont know, i just cant believe its over.    I make it seem like we've been broken up for like a month and its only been like 14 hours or so, but i seriously feel like in my mind a year has passed.  I dont know what im feeling right now, but i know its one of the worst feelings i've ever felt in my life, and i have no way to make it stop.

  I'm sorry if i just keep going on about this but i never dreamed someone could have this big of an impact on my life.  I've been sitting around my house since like 5, just sitting here trying to get everything in focus, and to kind of come out of this state of shock.  I really can't comprehend what has all happened today, but i guarentee tomorrow i will, and i dont think i can take it.  I can't stand the thought of being without her, she means everything to me, and now she's gone.  I honestly dont know what i am going to do without her.  I wish i could wake up and everything would be ok, i wish someone would tell me that she still feels the same way about me, i wish i could be with her right now but i cant.  This all probrable sounds really lame and stalkerish, but i seriously am lost without Maria.  Even when we were like half broken up but not i couldn't go through a normal day and concentrate on anything, i cant stop thinking about how great our relationship was and how great she was to me, but i have to because i am not going to have that anymore and its the worst pain ive ever felt to realize that.  It's sooooo hard to be able to say you honestly love someone with all your heart and most likely always will because of how they make you feel inside, and now i wont be able to express those feelings.  If you havent noticed i just keep going on and on about it because for a little bit while i'm talking about it i dont feel so sad.  It's funny though, because the person i would normally talk to when i feel like this or when im sad or depressed is her, and now shes gone.  I miss her so much already. I still Love her.